Jobs In Search!!

salam alaik

actually its not today

but on 3rd of december recently

searching for job opportunities with

my friend of course

the names..

i might as well as 'keep it secret'

:)

first of all

we supposed to meet at the

padang batu muda tambahan at 10 am 

one of my friend is earlier than me

*actually im a little bit late*

but another one really came late about 30 minutes or more perhaps

hah! sleepy head

today is really an

embarassing day

yet

really enjoyful

2 places that we applied for jobs

domino's pizza

and

cashier in Giant

funny part is

my earliest friend

is soooooo nervous when applying for the jobs

actually, i felt normal

nothing to be nervous about

another funny part is

we got lost!

as it is because we decided to go to SOGO

n end up lost in the middle of the road

haah!

thankfully we manage to find the correct bus to take us home

most of all

i forgotten to pay my father's phone bill that

we have to go to giant again

*well of course! dont wanna my dad to be angry*

*i can imagine if i dont pay, i would had been scolded*

and i dragged my two friends along

eventhough they are completely exhausted and tired

sorry guys

im not really good on the roads by myself

in the end, we arrived home almost asar

but alhamdulillah we manage to perform our prayer

:)

p/s: i dont wanna talk about the embarassing moments.. because its about me.. guhh.. anyway, im waiting for the call that will inform me that "YOU'VE GOT THE JOB!" hopefully.. pray for me yea. salam.. :)

TADAIMAA!! :D

~Bismillah hirahman nirahim~

~Assalamualaikum~

TADAIMA!!

Its been a long time since i've updated my blog

so far in my life

there are good things and also bad things happening around me

like an english quote:

"LIFE IS NOT A BED OF ROSES"

better keep it in mind

so that we can go through with our lives without complaining

for the good things are...

jeng jeng jeng

im in a smooth mood with my former friend right now

to be exact, my EX

pretty good huh..

and most of all

I HAD FINISHED MY SPM PAPERS!!

wooohoo..

i also learned a few or more things that are really worth it

that makes me say that

im really proud to be a muslim

im really proud to be a woman

im really proud to be who i am right now

:)

for the bad things are

i think that i spoiled up in my SPM paper

full of regrets

but theres nothing to do except tawakal

pray to Allah SWT

for a good results after i had done all my best

and the other bad things are

......................

*i've forgotten*

hah

i dont usually remember bad things that happen to me

i just see it as a trial for me

to be patience

to think about the rationality

to take moral values

rather than being down, frustrated, irritated or even feeling miserable

what's the point?

dude

you're just wasting your life being like that

without any initiative to make it better

rather that go on

and humiliated people openly in facebook

what would you get?

nothing in benefits

but 'SINS' in the unbeneficial way

think about it

just live you life happily

dont mourn it

and theeennnn

there will be some people will say

'you don't understand. you are always happy. you dont know what i've gone through.'

to be honest

thats what people always say to me directly in my face

true

i felt irritated

i felt like an alien with no feelings

i felt like "ohh im the only happy person here"

i felt like an arrow just pierced my heart

and i felt like"who am i actually in your eyes?"

i think about it really hard

like brainstorming for my exams about it

then, in conclusion

i say to myself

"my friends just dont know me"

"they say it because they didnt think about me"

and then i just let it be

pretending to be normal

i dont want it messed up with my life

that are too packed with something else

but i dont blame them

my fault of not telling them

actually i do feel like that

i've hurt soo much hearts already than

all of them hurt my heart

and of that, im sorry in my deepest heart

all of it is never meant to be done like that

this is my heart expressions... 

why that when im a bit clever than you, you would say

"hawa, you are clever already. you dont have to study"

"oh hawa, you dont need jus A, you already clever"

"ahh just go back home, you dont have to attend extra classes"

when i dont open my books in class

"yelaa.. budak da pandai kann"

when suddenly i've made alot of careless mistakes

"dont cry hawa, dont cry hawa", like mocking me

just for you info

im not that proud when all of you say

those thing to me

in fact

it really smashing my feelings

and so you know

im not clever

my brain development is sooo far that yours

you are suppose to be clever than me

i never be proud of being clever

as none of you ever asked me in class

actually i felt like im a bastard

you leave me when you want to

sometimes you really pissed me off

i sort of knowing that you dont actually like me

*just my feeling*

in the end

i dont mind

you are still my friend

i never blamed you

in fact i still care

i never keep a revenge

a piece of advice

NEVER DO THAT TO SOMEONE ELSE

just let me experience it

thats all.. salam..

p/s: not related at all with the headlines.. just noticed after i'd type all of it.. :D apologize a to be give if there are any harsh word that i've typed on my blog.. i dont know any other words to replace it in english.. haa.. farewell..

SO JUST YOU KNOW

Berhala Dalam Jiwa~

berhala dlm jiwa ~

sounds scary rite ? it is scary

pmbntukan brhala dlm jiwa


berhala biasa ditakrifkan sbg patung,objek yg dsmbah, diagung-agungkan. makna lain , berhala ialah apaapa yg dismbh melainkan Allah . tidak smstinya dlm bntuk objek , bahkan juga dlm bntuk ism (unsur) atau perkara .


persoalan TERPENTING buat diri kita , apakah wujud berhala dlm hati kita ?


di dlm hati wujud berhala ?


ya, mngkin shj kita tidk sedar akn kehadiranny


 adkh di dlm hati anda wjud berhala ?


mari kita samasama menilitinya .


bagaimana wujudny berhala dlm jiwa ?


berhala dlm jiwa wjud apabila kita mlbihkn perkara lain drpd Allah shingga ia dirasakan lbih pnting dan diutamakan lbh drpd Allah. scr tidk lngsg, 'berhala' sudah terwujud dlm diri kita .


sgala ketaatan , ketundukan dan pengorbanan dberikan mlbihi ap yg kita brikan kpd Allah. silap hari bulan, kita lgsg tidak mmbri ketaatan, ktundukn dan pngorbanan kpd Allah .


di titik ini, berhala sudah wujud .


walaupun mulut mnyatakan bhw kita tidk mnymbh selain Allah, ketahuilah ssungguhny keimann itu bukn dgn kata-kata shj. ia adlh ap yg tersemat di dlm hati dan dbuktikn dgn amal. 


skrg kita perhati dlm khidupn kita , ad prkaraprkara yg mmbuat kita mngendahkn arahan Allah , mringanringankn perintah-Nya dn mndktkan kita pd larangan-Nya ?


maka itulah BERHALA KITA .




penangan berhala dlm jiwa


kesannya , sdh pasti kita akn lbih jauh dr Allah . 


cthnya :

•  mnonton bola di stadium , shingga solat ditinggalkan .

• mndgr lagu-lagu lbih byk drpd mndgr dan mmbaca Al-Quran

• hukumhukum Allah ditinggalkan .

• khusyuk dgn permainan komputer shingga terlupa tuntutan sbg hamba.

• bekerja dan studi nak rak shinggakan printahprintah Allah sprt solat diringan-ringankan .

• memuja-muja ssuatu mlbihi pujaannya kpd Allah.

• baru diajak meninggalkan berpasang-pasangan, sudah sprt tercabut sparuh nyawa.

apabila wujud dua cinta berlawanan, satu perlu dikorbankan .

selaluny manusia mngorbnkan cinta Allah . mrk mngutamakan berhala dlm jiwa mrk , krn nafsu sudah mnguasai hati mrk . apakah kita sbhgian drpd mereka ?

jd , renung-renungkanlah . berusahalah utk meruntuhkn berhala dlm hati kita ini .

Ya Allah , jdkan kami insan yg mmpunyai keimann yg tguh terhdapMu Ya Allah . jauhkan kami drpd menduakanMu Ya Allah . tempatkanlah kami dalam golongan org-org yg beriman ya Allah . Maha Agung Engkau ya Allah , Maha mendengar lagi Maha Mengasihani .

amiin ~

p/s: i copied this from my freind's blog.. for those who read this.. hopefully you can take value from it.. salam..

Formation Completed!!

yes!

the formation is already completed

all is left is to insert the "gaya"

hee~~

but

there is still some people is a troublesome

at the last minute

they want to get out of the platoon

oh what a shitting shit!

2 of pengakap is joining us to fill up the platoon

but still short 2 persons

gotta fill them up soon

p/s: oh, can we make it?? okay2.. i must believe in myself n my platoon.. hopefully we do well during the competiton.. insyaAllah~

 

Dr. Sheikh Muszaphar Shukor Al-Masrie is in my SCHOOL!! ~

 im so like

AHHHHHH~

when Dr Sheikh Muszaphar is coming to my school

heck yeah im so excited

but i did not scream like a maniac like other girls do

=.=

but

his smile is so mesmerising..

GOSH

no wonder all the other girls melt like ****

good part is

i took part in a pantomime about Dr. SMS biography

along with

sakinah, farah, nabila, amalina, hafizah, hajar, ezzatie, 

aceh, afiq, arif, salihin, fahkri, abid, effy, meor, alif

it is soo damn fun!!

even Dr SMS likes it

wahhh

i wanna scream

but i will not

haha

do check the video

in my facebook profile XD

i really hope that we can present it in front

of him

but due to lack of time,

it is not possible.. =.=

anyway

he likes it

p/s: damn.. it is so great.. wanna do it again with all of you guys..

 

 

BITTER HEART~ =.=

this post is for all krs members

boys and girls

i dont know what to say anymore

but my heart becomes bitter to all of you

please lah

i do this for you guys too

i want to help you all

to get certificates and curricular marks

i want to help you all to get A in 10% koko

and i want to help myself too

i want to futher my studies in a great universities

please

help me and help yourselves

come on..

give me some cooperations

i am willing to sacrifice my extra classes for all of you

i am willing to teach you

it is all for me

the only thing that can contribute me a certificate

p/s: hopefully all of you think about your future.. co-curricular is important too.. although you get straight A's nut B in ur 10% co-co, it will be no use.. your name will be the last in the list of those who gets straight A's.. think about it.. dont waste your chances.. i pray that all of you present this monday..

Quarrel~ =.=

today i quarrel with someone

my best friend

i thought she was angry at me

because that boy ask me to be the mc today

for the maulidur rasul in our school

but actually, she just wanted to be the mc since she was form 1

we text

and quarrel about everything

why do you do that, why do you do this

then, we expressed all of

our feelings that we kept for years..

it felt a little bit relieve though

glad to have that conversation

although all that we kept is so painful

that struck directly to our heart,

but i wont cry

i wont say sorry for myself

sorry is a weakness

crying is a weakness

i want to be strong

i am tough

i am not desperate

i will not sulking easily

i will not cry easily

i will not take something hurt in my heart easily

thats because i always think positively

n i always want to be happy

keeping myself busy

so that, i will forget those shitting things in my life

eventhough it is just for a while

i cant be tension all day

thats why i always be friends with my friends like mad

p/s: hey, i wanna us to be better together.. i love being friends with all of you guys.. you all are the lights to my darkness of loneliness.. i dont want to be alone.. thanks for being by my side.. :)